Sunday, July 25, 2010

30th birthday :: personal story

today i am 30.  we celebrated the other night with a retro party - "pseudo hubby" and i chose to honor the 80's decade.  we did this mainly so i had a reason to take my polaroid.
































































































































i was thinking about things i could share with you about my first 30 years.  there's a lot.  here's a little summary:
  • i am proud to say that i am so much stronger than i ever thought i could be.  as a young girl, if you would have asked me what type of person i wanted to be i don't think i would have even thought about inner strength.  now, as an adult, it is my favorite quality about myself and i will work hard to pass it onto my boys.
  • at each stage of my life, i have felt very blessed and loved.  the people that surround me today keep getting better and better as we grow together.  it is because of this that i am looking forward to aging instead of dreading it.  without my family, my children, and my friends, i would be nothing.
  • learning, to me, is life.  i hope to always have an open mind and a willingness to learn a lesson.  
  • there are some things that i may never be able to give up or change about myself.  these things include smoking the occasional cigarette with a glass of wine, lying out in the sun without a bit of sunscreen, my argument style with "pseudo hubby", and my inability to enjoy myself if the house is even just a little messy.  i will most likely spend my entire life trying to change these qualities/habits about myself because so far, i have tried and failed endlessley.  but... i will keep at it.
  • which brings me to forgiveness.  the faster i can forgive, the happier i am.  this is the most important lesson and it took me a long time to figure out.  it's what Jesus taught and it's what we should all practice.  it's a lesson that's easy to preach, but can be difficult to implement.  in high school, my humanities teacher asked us to write down our favorite quote.  the one i chose was short and simple.  "let it be".

i also wanted to say thank you to all that helped me celebrate the other night.  there were moments and kind words that i will never forget and hope to take with me for the rest of my life.  cheers.

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